Seriously I hate went meet some girls that remind me to my ex-girlfriend. Bukan saya benci that random girls that look alike terutama bila senyum or ketawa. Tetapi saya benci perasaan bila ‘teringat’. Seriously when I am really into the girl (really heavily fall in love), that will almost permanently lekat kat dalam fikiran. Susah nak buang. So I just made it and tell myself , you hate that feeling! You hate your ex. Bila teringat tu, tak tau perasaan waktu tu apa..
Almost 2 years with status ‘single’. Yeah, I know sometime I think I in love with someone, but honestly I can’t go further to next step. I want, but better for me just stop at being just as friend. I have my own rule. I will not be in relationship selagi kerjaya hidup aku tak stabil. Money is everything today. I want to help improve my family life first before I go and have my own family. I need to see relationship “with love” as serious business. Ya, I dont want to fail again in love, and the next relationship I will make sure that can go to pelamin.
I hope the time will heal me and rewrite the ‘teringat’ with some new data (erase the old) or clean reformat to new.